ok i just decided to blog about something personal for the first time!
i met this guy so randomly through my eye-doctor(which takes about 3 pages to tell u how )!!! LOL
he is so nice, polite and everything.. well educated ( he is a phd student), we have 6 years of age difference which i like to have with my dates, and he is relatively taller than me (which for some reason was an issue with my previous dates;they werent tall enough for me), oh and he has very nice family!
he has everything that i wanted in a guy, personality wise.
the funny thing is that he didnt paid for my lunch ,which i tottally loved since i belive it puts pressure on me. i feel like a gold digger!!! but anyways…
the hard parts…
he wears a really stronge glasses which i cant see his eyes through them . it doesnt make his eyes look bigger, i just cant see them !!!!!!!!!!!!besides he is sooo skinny ; he has no ass what so ever…!
his thighs are abit smaller than me and his arms are just a bit larger than mine!!!! he is not freakishly skinny but yeah skinny enough to call him that!:-s o and out of 7-8 dates that we went on so far he wasnt shaved for about 4 of them!!!! i dont know if he doesnt care or just being comfortable with me!
i am a very touchy, touchy person ,and i usually touch people pretty soon, but toward him… i just cant feel it. i dont feel like touching him . he hugged me about like 3 times but i was like… yeaahhh .. okey 
like u know …
2 of my friends have seen him and they r like he is okeeeeeeeey ur just being pickyyyyyy and stuff. but u know what, he cant get rid of his glasses or wearing contacts or getting eye surgery, since his eyes are this way b/c in a basketball game someone hit him in the forhead that he blacked out ..!!!!!!! i feel sorry for him.. i know it will be on my nerves for EVER.
we talked to each other almost everyday for a month but then i decide i dont have any chemistry to him . so it is better for me and him to keep it as a friend before it gets serious..( he never asked me out officialy , we just got introduced to each other, so its not like i have to say oohhh lets be friends and stuff)!! so i stopped calling him and the strange part he stopped too.. i guess we usually called if the other person did his or her turn, but since it was my turn and i didnt call, he didnt eaither!
so i dont know…. i deeply care for him since he is soooo nice and i know nowadays finding a good guy is pretty hard, but on the other hand, i dont feel attracted to him sexually!!!
i dont know if i am being shallow or just honest to my feelings …. i dont wanna just go out with him b/c there is no one else in my life, then as soon as i found someone better leave him and being like a whore and be like oohh “im sorry, i didnt have any feelings for u from the begining, and crap like that”! it just seems wrong to me!! plus i am feeling he is developing feelings for me.. i just sense it!
any advice???
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o and my blood’s sodium is normal !
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